2nd Beta Results

This morning was the second beta hCG test to make sure the level is rising appropriately. I had to go in early because I had to be at work early for a meeting, but that meant I would know the results sooner!

About 2 hours later I got the notification that I had new results available. I immediately logged in to see them. I saw my estradiol results and progesterone results (they were checking those today too), but no hCG results. Hmmm….that was the only one I was interested in!

After our meeting I called the lab and asked them to check the order and add the hCG while they still had my blood sample there. They told me it would take about 20-30 minutes to get those results. A short time later I go another notification that I had another new test result. Again, I logged in immediately to see the results. I scrolled down slowly holding my breath.

Before I say the number I should explain what we were looking for it to be. They look for the number to double about every 48 hours. My number on Friday (4 days ago at 9dpt) was 140 so 48 hours later it should have been around 280. Then 48 hours after that which was this morning it should have bee around 560.

I scrolled to the bottom and there is was…582! So exciting!

I had a feeling it had gone up just because my test on Sunday morning was darker than the control line. I was shocked this weekend when I started having symptoms already! Usually I get another 2-4 weeks before I start noticing any differences. My stomach was already feeling kind of off in the morning or if my stomach gets too empty. I also have notices sore breasts and exhaustion. It’s crazy to be feeling pregnancy symptoms already. I hope it means that belly buddy is growing well in there!

As of right now, IFs haven’t heard the results because the clinic hasn’t sent them out and they’re probably still sleeping. I’m very anxious for them to hear the good news. Obviously this is just one milestone in the long list of milestones we need to reach before they have a baby in their arms, but it’s still a great one to reach!

Fingers crossed we continue getting good news!!

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Beta Day!

It’s beta day! I was off work today, but still got up early to get to the lab right when it opened at 8am. It was already hopping and it took 30+ minutes to get called back. It didn’t take long and my blood was drawn and I was on my way to the grocery store.

We’re heading to the coast for the weekend so we had a busy morning of getting things ready. Less than 2 hours later I got the notification that I had a new test result in my MyChart portal. I stopped what I was doing to open it up. I opened up my test results and there was that beautiful number….140 πŸ’•

I knew from my at home tests that it was going to be a pretty solid number. I’ve had some great tests the last few days. Originally I had planned on waiting until 6dpt to test, but then the tests I ordered came early and my will power crumbled πŸ˜† I ended up testing Sunday evening at 4.25dpt and got a very clear second line. I was in shock and very excited. Over the last several days the line has gotten darker.

As I’m writing this IFs haven’t found out yet so I won’t be posting it until later after the clinic updates them. I’m so excited for them and so happy we were able to give this little embryo a chance. Obviously there are lots of milestones we needs to reach before they take home a healthy baby, but this is a great first step!

Our next beta is on Tuesday because of the holiday weekend. At that time we will want it to be 560 or higher as that would indicate that it’s doubling every 48 hours like it should 🀞🏼🀞🏼

Look at that beautiful line! Grow baby grow!

Almost 6dpt

In a few hours I will be 6dpt. I was trying to just wait until this morning to test again, but caved and tested last night then again this morning.

I’m happy to report that the line looks great and is getting darker. It’s best to compare tests about 48 hours apart as the HCG hormone that they pick up is supposed to double every 48 hours or so. If you do them day to day they don’t always get noticeably darker because it doesn’t always increase enough in that shorter amount of time. I usually test everyday anyway, but I just keep in mind to mainly compare tests that are 2 days apart.

All that being said the test I took last night was definitely darker than the one 24 hours before which is a great sign! The one I took this morning was only 10.5 hours after the one last night so they look the same which I expected.

I showed my long time coworker my test from this morning and her first reaction was to ask if I was sure there was just one because she thought the line was too dark for just one this early πŸ˜† I told her to keep her twin juju to herself, that one is plenty.

At the moment I am just thrilled that the line is getting darker. I have my fingers and toes crossed that it continues and we have great beta numbers on Friday and Tuesday!

Here’s all the ones I’ve taken so far
This is the better comparison because it was longer between tests.

5dpt

There’s nothing much different than a couple days ago, but I wanted to pop on and make a post anyway.

I’m feeling pretty good. Maybe some mild cramping every once in awhile. I’ve been tired, but then again we had a very busy weekend. That with the combination of the progesterone means I’ve been feeling wiped out by the evening. By that time I’m ready to lay in bed with a heating pad on my hips where the injections go.

The injection areas are getting more sore, but it’s manageable. I don’t notice it too much unless they get bumped. Today there’s a little lump where the injection was last night, but other than that no real lumps/bumps.

I can’t say anything is a pregnancy symptom because the estrogen and progesterone injections mimic all the symptoms so we just have to wait and see. Friday morning seems so far away! I know it’ll be here before I know it because we have a busy week between school, work, kids’ activities, and getting ready for a weekend at the beach. It’s nice to keep busy and I was happy to have a busy weekend to keep my mind off of every little twinge.

A little over 3.5 days until beta! πŸ€žπŸΌπŸ€

4.25 dpt

I think I mentioned before that I waited to order any tests so that I wouldn’t be tempted to test to early. I wanted to wait until at least 6dpt if not 7dpt. After transfer though I decided 6dpt was going to be as long as I could wait. The tests I ordered were supposed to show up tomorrow. Then I would only have to have self control for a few hours before testing the next morning. Then the dang things showed up today! Well crap, I can’t have them here for that long and not test. I was already rummaging through my cupboards looking for left overs last night πŸ˜†

I talked myself in circles all day after I got the notification they were coming today. One minute I was going to wait, the next I wasn’t. I was honestly terrified to test. I knew it was early and would likely be negative, but I knew that if it was I would be upset no matter how much I rationalized it. The last successful transfer I didn’t get anything until like 5.75dpt or something so logically I knew it could be negative and still be successful. I factored in that you should really test first thing in the morning because urine is more concentrated then. If you do test in the evening you’re supposed to try to hold “it” for at least 2-3 hours first. So many what ifs!

At 7pm I decided I was going to test. I had gone to the bathroom a couples hours before and decided to wait until 8pm. At 8 I went got my progesterone injection ready then tested. At first I watched it creep across the test strip. I watched until it reached the control line which started to darken. I glanced to where the test line should be and could almost swear I could see a shadow. I walked away and set a timer to read it when you’re supposed to so I wouldn’t look until the result was there.

Tick. Tock. Tick. Tock.

The timer was down to 30 seconds. Screw it, I’m looking. There it was…that beautiful second line. And not even one I had to bend and twist the test to see. It was there in all its glory πŸ˜†

Shock. Disbelief. Hope. Excitement. Relief. All the feelings. Obviously I know that many things could happen to make this a not viable pregnancy. So many things have to go right. However, today I am pregnant and for that I am so thankful.

Keep growing little one! πŸ’•πŸ’•

There’s a new thing now where you can download an app from the makers of these tests and scan the test. It reads the window and tells you if you’re pregnant. It did not exist when I did my last successful transfer in 2019 so I’ve never gotten to use it before!

3dpt

We are 3 days post transfer and things are going great. I’ve been tired, but that’s normal with the progesterone. I’ve also had heartburn and round ligament pain, but again that’s the progesterone talking.

I haven’t tested yet because it’s still way too early. I was smart this time and didn’t order them ahead of time. I ordered them later so I wouldn’t be tempted to test too early. That didn’t stop me from rooting around the bathroom this afternoon to see if I had any left over 🀣 Luckily I did not.

I still keep thinking of this little bean as a boy, I have no idea why. I can’t shake it. I’m going to laugh if this little one sticks around and it’s a girl.

5 1/2 more days until beta πŸ€žπŸΌπŸ€πŸ€žπŸΌπŸ€

1dpt

That’s 1 day past transfer 😊

What does 1dpt look like? It looks like a lot of catching up TV shows and video games. I wish I could say I slept in, but I woke up at 6:30am when the hubs got up. I spent most of the day on the couch since the kids were at school. Once they got home I headed to the bedroom so they wouldn’t be tempted to climb on me.

IFs sent a beautiful flower arrangement that definitely brought a smile to my face. They told me yesterday that during breakfast they were explaining to their daughter (as much as you can to a 2 year old πŸ˜†) about the transfer and that she was nodding confidently and saying “yes, yes” How cute is that? I told them I hope she’s right!

I’ve had some light cramping off and on. I’ve had that before with my other successful transfers, but not with the failed one. Obviously it doesn’t mean anything at this point, but I’ll take it as a good sign just because I can. I’m talking to embaby a lot, telling he/she (although I keep unintentionally “bub” which is what I call baby boys out of habit). To stay put and grow big and strong. That they have a whole family waiting to meet them. That if they stick around they’re going to have an amazing life earth side and go on so many adventures.

I mostly feel really positive about this transfer, but it’s easy for the self doubt to creep in. Negative Nelly pops up to point out that this embryo actually has a pretty low chance of sticking around no matter how good I thought it looked on the screen. Before the last failed transfer I had only known successful transfers. I counted myself so lucky because I know that’s not the case for a lot of GC’s. Now having had one you temper your excitement a little because you know there’s a chance it doesn’t work out. In this case with the embryo not being the best quality, there’s an even greater chance it doesn’t work out. Even so, I’m choosing to have hope that this is the baby IFs were meant to have πŸ’•

I haven’t bought and at home pregnancy tests yet because I don’t want to be tempted to take them too early. I figure if I don’t order them yet and they’re not in the house I can keep myself from testing at 3dpt πŸ˜† It is hard to see a lot of girls in my transfer groups (Facebook groups of GC’s who all transfer in the same few months) getting squinters (very light positives) at 3dpt. It’s tempting to want to see if I get one. I want to wait until 6dpt at the very least. Once again I won’t be sharing the results here, but we’ll all find out in 8 days if this little one kept growing 🀞🏼🀞🏼

*I didn’t proof read this so I apologize for any spelling/grammar mix ups!

Embryo on Board!

We have an embryo on board and hopefully snuggling in for the next 9 months!

The transfer itself went great. It was my fourth transfer and third one at this clinic so knew what to expect. I always worry a little about the embryo not surviving the thaw, maybe more so this time just because it’s a lower quality embryo. All was fine though.

They had the picture of the embryo on the screen in the procedure room. It looked good to me, but I don’t really know. It was definitely hatched out of its shell which is good, I know that much. The embryologist asked if I was ready to transfer this “nice big embryo.”

After the transfer I was wheeled back to the “recovery” room to relax for 20 minutes before I could get dressed and use the bathroom. After that they wheeled me down to the parking lot to where the hubs and kids were waiting. Then we headed home…easy peasy!

We’re about about an hour from home at the moment. I’m ready to snuggle up in my bed. They gave me a Valium before to relax the uterus and it made me a little sleepy. Plus all the excitement and anxiety leading up to the transfer takes a toll.

I’m feeling really positive about this transfer and I hope it’s well placed. My beta blood test is on the 27th πŸ€žπŸΌπŸ€žπŸΌπŸ€πŸ€

Waiting to go back
Transfer socks!

Less Than 48 Hours

or thereabouts to transfer…I haven’t been told yet what time the transfer will be, just that is will be Wednesday afternoon.

I went in this morning for blood work to check my estrogen and progesterone levels. I got them back shortly after. My estrogen was 832 which is higher than I’ve ever had before a transfer. My progesterone was 48.2 which is also higher than I’ve had pre transfer. I had a freaked out thinking that they were way too high. “Uh-oh” was my first thought. I consulted some fellow GCs who are in transfer cycles too. A few of them said that their levels were that high or higher in previous cycles and it was fine. I did some more searching in surrogacy groups I’m in and found other people that had levels even higher than mine and not only were able to go ahead with transfers, but had successful ones. All that made me feel much better, but I still had to wait for the update from the clinic which doesn’t come until 3:30ish. I didn’t ask for a faster update today because I didn’t expect to worry about the numbers. After I got them I didn’t want to ask because I think they probably secretly don’t like that I get the results before they can review them. I think a lot of times doctors want to be the ones to give results so patients don’t freak out about stuff they don’t know or Google things things and get stressed out. So I decided to be patient today.

Almost exactly at 3:30pm (at least she’s consistent!) I got a text from the clinic coordinator

Yay!! We are ready to go for Wednesday the 18th! I am so so happy to be here. After the failed transfer and the setbacks this cycle I am just grateful for the chance to give this little embryo a chance.

Progesterone injections started on the 12th, tonight will be my 5th one. I’m have a little soreness, but it’s not bad yet. I know the knots are inevitable, but I’m not worried about them. I’ve done these injections enough to know what’s in store and that I can deal with it just fine.

Tomorrow after the kids are done with school we will head to my parents house where we will spend the night. They are out of town, but we figured it’s easier for us to stay there than at a hotel. The kids have beds there they’re used to and there’s no check out time. After the transfer on Wednesday we’ll head home (the kids will be excited they get to miss a day of school).

Fingers crossed for a smooth transfer!

Lining Check Results

This morning was “the moment of truth” so to speak for this cycle. I’ve been a bundle of nerves the last couple days thinking about it. I’ve always had great lining checks, but this cycle has been such a roller coaster that I really didn’t know what to expect.

The image popped up on the screen and I immediately it didn’t look quite like the other times I’ve had these ultrasounds. The lining looked just a little different than the other times I’ve seen it. They are looking for a trilaminar pattern (like the one below). Mine just didn’t have such a well defined white strip in the middle like I have before. The thickness was great though at about 12mm I think. My ovaries were quite with only little follicles hanging around.

I left the imaging clinic still a bundle of nerves because I didn’t know that the different appearance would mean. I headed over to get my blood work done which was a pain because for some reason they lab keeps not getting my orders. I know our clinic coordinator faxes them over, I don’t doubt her. They just haven’t been getting into my chart the last few times I’ve been in. This morning I had to leave the lab, go to work, print them out, then take them back. Luckily it didn’t take too long to get back and have the blood drawn.

Then I had to go back to work and wait. I emailed the clinic coordinator to let her know that I had gotten the blood work done and kindly begged her to update me as soon as possible. I explained that I was very anxious about this ultrasound and if just this once she could update me as soon as the doctor reviewed the results I would be eternally grateful.

My blood work results came in and they looked okay as far as I could tell. Definitely higher than the 31 they were a week and a half ago. I just had to wait for the official word on what the plan was.

At 2pm I got “the email”.

Oh thank goodness! It felt like a massive weight was lifted off my shoulders….we were still on for transfer. I updated everyone that I knew was waiting and finally felt like eating lunch. It’s was such an enormous relief to read those words. I reread them a few times just to convince myself that I was reading it correctly.

Progesterone starts on Thursday. Baby aspirin and medrol (steroid) start Friday. I have blood work on Monday to make sure my progesterone level is rising. If that looks good then Tuesday after the kids get out of school we will get loaded up and head out. We’re taking the kids with us this time because I got the okay to drive the 3 1/2 hours home after transfer so they’ll only miss one day of school. It’s easier than asking a family member to come all the way to our house and watch them for 1 day. I get to then do bed rest at home which will be comfy I think. The kids will go to school Thursday and the hubs will work from home so he can be at my beck and call πŸ˜† It may be hard with the kids Thursday after school, but we’ll make it work. They’re old enough to understand that mom has to relax. They won’t like it necessarily (especially my daughter), but they’ll survive.

I am feeling really happy right now and just enjoying that we reached another check point in this cycle. Hopefully in 9 days we’ll be giving IFs little embryo a chance to grow. Keep your fingers crossed for us!