Beta Results

Yesterday I got to the lab as soon as they opened for my blood draw. There were already a bunch of people there, but it didn’t take too long to get called back.

I got a message about 12:20 saying that I had new test results in my patient portal for the lab. I already knew what they would be as I had taken several at home tests. Unfortunately, this little embryo didn’t stick around and the test was negative 😔

Even though I knew that’s what it was going to be, it was very disappointing to see the <1 result. I am very glad I knew ahead of time and had time to reconcile it with myself. That’s just my personality, it would have been much harder if it was a surprise.

A bit later the coordinator from the clinic left me a voice-mail and a message in that patient portal. She let me know to discontinue all medication and I should start a period in the next 3-4 days.

After I got home I messaged the IFs just to say I’m so sorry it didn’t work out and that I was thinking of them. They had chosen not to know the results of any at home tests like they did last time so they didn’t have the heads up I did. We’re going to have a video chat sometime next week to touch base.

I’ll be playing the waiting game for a bit which is totally fine. We will all need some time to sit with it. We were all very excited to go on this journey together and it came to a quick ending.

It may be awhile before I update as I don’t know what the next steps will be. If IFs decide not to make anymore embryos (which is completely fine and understandable) I’m not sure that I’ll pursue another match any time soon. It would be several months to go through the matching, psych screening, medical screening, legal, and transfer. Starting entirely over right now seems daunting.

It would likely also take several months for new embryos to be made, but since we already have a great relationship I’m 100% willing to wait on that if that’s what they want to do. We wouldn’t be starting completely over. I will just wait and see how things go from here. It’ll work out like it’s supposed to

Thanks for all the good thoughts through this last transfer!


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